God place it upon my heart to read the bible yesterday which I admit something I mean to do daily but don't actually
do as often as I should. But I am about to change that.
I had a rough day with going
down the police and reading the report which was so inaccurate about my son's assault.
schools do not help us, the police do nothing but deliberate indifference... I seemed assaulted on every side. Is there
no justice?? I wrap my arms around my boys trying to protect the flay and the on slaught protecting them from the injustice
but never quite able to do so as it seems to come in waves.
Before I left to take Collin to
speech yesterday a voice clearly told me to take my Bible to read while I waited. After we got there I automatically turned
to Psalms and every passage I read spoke to my situation so perfrectly as if God was directly having a conversation with me.
And even when Colllin ended up melting down during therapy I felt peace and calm. Before bed -- late at night I continued
to read Psalms...
This one in particular drew me as I had often cried out for justice myself...
for those feeling oppressed and caged on every side. ..For my son...
Why Do You Hide Yourself?
10:1 Why, O Lord, do you stand far away?
do you hide yourself in times of trouble?
2 In arrogance
the wicked hotly pursue the poor;
let them be caught in the schemes that they have devised.
3 For the wicked boasts of the desires of his soul,
the one greedy for gain curses and renounces the Lord.
4 In the
pride of his face the wicked does not seek him;
all his thoughts are, "There is no God."
ways prosper at all times;
your judgments are on high, out of his sight;
for all his foes, he puffs at them.
6 He says in his heart, "I shall not
throughout all generations I shall not meet adversity."
7 His mouth is filled with cursing and deceit and oppression;
his tongue are mischief and iniquity.
8 He sits in ambush in the villages;
in hiding places he murders the innocent.
His eyes stealthily watch for the helpless;
9 he lurks in ambush like a lion in his thicket;
he lurks that he may seize the
he seizes the poor when he draws him into his net.
helpless are crushed, sink down,
and fall by his might.
says in his heart, "God has forgotten,
he has hidden his face, he will never see it."
12 Arise, O Lord; O God,
lift up your hand;
forget not the afflicted.
does the wicked renounce God
and say in his heart, "You will not call to account"?
14 But you do see, for you note mischief and vexation,
you may take it into your hands;
to you the helpless commits himself;
you have been the
helper of the fatherless.
15 Break the arm of the wicked and evildoer;
call his wickedness to account till you find none.
16 The Lord is king forever and ever;
nations perish from his land.
17 O Lord,
you hear the desire of the afflicted;
you will strengthen their heart; you will incline your
18 to do justice to the fatherless and the oppressed,
that man who is of the earth may strike terror no more.